2.20.2009

change something, change nothing...

once a month i meet with an awesome group of friends. we gather for a night of fellowship, discussion, food, prayer and fun! i love this group of friends. i enjoy our time together so much. this past week when we met our lovely hostess opened up our discussion time using some "heart to heart" cards - great for icebreakers. we don't need to break the ice, we have no problems talking but they are so fun to do. each lady grabbed a card with a question on it, we went around and read the question and answered it. my question was..."if you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?" hmmmm....

i had such a hard time answering that question. in the past i could have given a list of things that i would have wanted to change about my life. bigger house, bigger vehicle, more money, less debt, more kids, less kids, longer hair, smaller body, etc. but this time i was speechless. i couldn't really answer this question. maybe i was taking it way too deep and making more out of it than i should have. maybe i should have come up with something. there are things that would be nice to have in my life. like a play room or more time for myself. but there is nothing i would want to change. i am truly content. i don't want any more.

i have come a long way. i used to feel so much discontentment. and want to change so many things about my life. now, i just want to focus on what i have and how can i do my best with what i have been blessed with. i wouldn't want to change anything, i just want to get better at balancing and enjoying what i have. i am content.

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