in a valley...

praying for a peak.... soon!

it feels like we have been in a valley for quite some time. i feel like we have been pruned a whole lot and then placed in a valley. can that happen to us all at that same time? it sure has. we keep saying that something big is about to happen. all the pruning and all the valleys have to lead to some great fruit and some big peaks - right? today, i have been praying that it happens really really soon.

for some time now, i have been going with the flow and knowing that all of this is God's plan for us. all that we have been through and are going through - is His plan. most days my chin is up and my head held high. today is not one of those days. most days i am very optimistic and encouraged by all that is going on. but today is not one of those days. i am very very far from either of those emotions. today, i am pessimistic and discouraged. today is not one of those days. i am exhausted and completely spent. i don't feel like i have a thing left to give.

not sure what in the world is going to be thrown at us next, i feel like i am definitely not throwing the first punch (sorry, Pastor). i feel like i am down and out and barely have the strength to get up and fight.

i pray for the strength to carry this large ripe fruit all the way through the valley and to the very top of the peak. today, i am on my knees with tears streaming praying for the pruning to be done and to be on the top of the peak. i know this is all my timing, not His. i just can not take another punch.



disclaimer: i know this is not a very uplifting or encouraging post to read today. i apologize, hopefully soon i can post some words of encouragement or laughter -- today is just not one of them. one of the purposes of my blog is to be transparent -- so today you get what you see! so actually i am going to take back the apology from above.